Tomorrow's the Majlis Apresiasi Pelajar thingy and I was invited.

But I'm not happy at all D;

From number 1 drop until number 8 this year.

Sigh... I feel so guilty for my result.

I don't deserve to get that Majlis Apresiasi Pelajar certificate.

Haiz... hope my results will improve.

Now I know that having a bunch of friends are better than having a best friend.

You know, sometimes friends are unreliable.

Friends can become 'frenemies'( a backstabber).

But without friends, life's gonna be boring.

So I'll rather have friends that I don't really know rather than only having a best friend.

It's complicated...

After having a C for Maths. I fear Maths a lot.

I will be cautious for Maths.

But until now... I don't get that Indices chapter.

Teacher's like blablabla-ing in front and I will be having millions of question marks emerging in my head.

I won't hate you, Indices...if you actually love me back. xD

By the way, I'm having 2 events on the same time tomorrow in school.

So I will clone myself...somehow.

For those who comes to school on Saturday, you will see 2 of 'me's in school. HAHA

Grading Grading Grading.

Taeguk Taeguk Taeguk.

Kicks Kicks Kicks.

Blocks Blocks Blocks.

IM READYEH FOR GRADING. Hope I'll pass...then. :)

Lately, I'm so busy with homeworks and kerja kursuses and piano's Aural and stuffs like that.

But I want to read my novels. :(

I can't ban myself from novels just...because...of...PMR!

SO NO MATTER WHAT I WILL CONTINUE READING NOVELS.

Just try to read a few chapters one day and do homework at the same day.

And I'll still have my afternoon sleep ( which wastes a lot of time).

No matter what, I'll let my results improve.

5A, cepat go become 8As!

Oh... I also heard Talentime's coming. Is anyone in need of a pianist? Dunnoe if I'll be participating this year since Thivyah's mad at me about Mag Inc. Sheesh, why does she gets mad at such a tiny matter?

I want watch Hunger Games Hunger Games Hunger Games and a whole lot of movies waiting for me to watch :x

是真心的话, 就再等我等我3年吧! XDXD

Sometimes it's raising your voice,

Sometimes it's making some noise.

Two important things. And they didn't inform me at all. Feel like doing some slapping. They treat me like I'm some kind of invisible thing. Maybe they forgot to tell me. But this is not the first time.

Or... maybe because I'm not their best friends although we see each other in the class every day and talk every day. It's true, I take many people as good friends but not best friends. But still... we're friends. CAN'T YOU JUST TELL ME IS IT THAT HARD TO OPEN YOUR MOUTH? Ish, I get pissed off so easily sometimes. Luckily Bryan informed me. Thanks, mate.

So busy this week. I'm gonna be busy during holiday, too. Projects, piano exams, exams, homeworks etc. So scared for piano exam. I've study for 4 years and if I don't get above 66 it's counted as fail and I won't get my cert. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH. stress stress stress. So many things to remember here and there.

AND MY MATHS WAS.... very bad. At least I didn't cry unlike others. You may think I'm strong but seriously no I'm not. I was grinning like a cheshire cat when I got that Maths paper. I was ready to get C anywayssss. When the chinese guys knew my result they taught I'll cry but I didn't. And they were like:" Are you ok? Why you no cry? I thought girls were suppose to cry" HAHAHA LOL

Okay, bye. - -

The Awakening :Me.

The 'XJ' has been awaken.

Yeah I'm back everybade.

Loooooooooong time no post (How many o's did i typed?)

These days I've suddenly lost the interest of writing.

Hmm... I don't know why exactly.

Today's the last day of CNY. Sho Sad :(

So..... Byebye CNY. Bye bye angpaus.....

I don't know what to write about CNY lol.

Last week my school had the road-run practice so as a very *uh Hum* hardworking *uh hum* student I stayed back in school and run.

But I ran for two days ;D 'cause I had nothing to do at home so I pura-pura become a Gamma house member and run.

See how rajin I am xD

When I was running with Suja we talked a lot.

She was asking what was my ambition and... well here comes the same answer again: I don't have one.

Many people asked this question and they gave me the OHMYRAVENCLAW-ish face.

Even the Sivik teacha was telling us about our school's science/art stream package sort of thingy.

If I take Pure Science I don't know if i can cope because I'm not very good in it.

I dislike studying bout human body idk why.

When teacha was teaching bout the intestine organs valve heart four chambers pulmonary artery thing, I was yawning.

And if I take Art Streams it'll be worst I think, because I have no interest in art at all.

Accounts.... is a well I don't like doing Simpan Kira so... let's just forget about Accounts.

My parents and friends kept telling me the same sentence:

'It's time to think.'

As if i didn't think. It's not that I don't have any interest in anything it's just that I'm not insecure about which field I want to develop into in the future.

Last time I was keen on taking Music course but now it has changed.

I take playing piano as an entertainment only not a passion or life or anything.

Although I really like Maths but I can't count numbers by heart.

I love movies but if you say making movies I don't know a thing at all.

So..... um... macam mana a?

I told my family about this matter and they encouraged me to don't worry so much.

They said there will be a time when I'll know and I'll be sure of it.

I hope that the time and thinking and desire will blend in and build up my so-called ambition, then.

Aiyahhh, just work in the Ministry of Magic la....

If not join Jack Sparrow's crew and sail in the seas for the whole life.

Lol, little me and my big imaginary world.

Speaking of Harry Potter:

I like this picture. It feels like Hagrid's a father to Harry. :) What a nice hug.

GTG~

Wake me up at when PMR ends.

Then I don't need to take pmr ahahaha what crap i'm talking. - -

School started two days ago.

I have no problem with my new class because our school reshuffled the classes and nearly all my last year classmates are in the same class with me.

Same people, senang to mix with.

Sadly, Thivyah's not in my class for dunnowhatkindofreason.

Priya's sitting at my left and Wan Ning's sitting at my right.

Infront:Vanessa, Shu Xian, Yiyan.

And these chinese boys are always kacauing me ( in a good way, actually)

Teacher's are all fine.

Not.

Cikgu Avadiar's teaching me sejarah AHHHHHHHHHHH.

Every year's Sejarah teacher is always teaching in that kind of boring tone.

Today, after recess suddenly Andrew was shouting at us saying 'OI YOU ALL PERGI DEWAN' We went to the hall with our heavy bags. Cikgu Rozhan started talking about morality and being a good student stuffs like that. Another teacher talked about his own story as a student and a discipline teacher.

All my friends weren't listening because they were reading How I Met Myself.

But I was listening to their speech because I would like to know a perspective view of a teacher since my parents are teachers too.

The story of Cikgu Aizam was interesting. It's about him being a gangster when he was young and how he became more mature when he was growing up.

He also said about how he dealed with troubled students.

My father always come back and tell my family about how fed up and angry he is dealing with these bunch of people. And when he talks about it his two eyes will pop up like mad person. - -

After Cikgu Aizam's speech suddenly Puan Bada start saying she wants 70 people to get straight As in Pmr stuffs like that.

GAWD, COULD YOU TEACHERS STOP MUMBLING BOUT PMR?! ONE TIME IS ENOUGH SHIZZ.

Everyone knows PMR is coming so just say it once not a thousand times, you all trying to cekikkan(is there such word) us hah? ><

Then Puan Bada started talking bout signing the aku janji urghhh.

I'm revising nearly every day now. Weekends I just relax because I got Taekwondo and Tuition and other stuffs.

I will try to stop wasting time - -

And less blogging.

Ok, Enough of this PMR talk. = =

In a land of myth and a time of magic, the destiny of a great kingdom rests on the shoulders of a young boy. His name...M E R LI N.

I'm in love with this Merlin series, seriously.

I don't know why I like magical stories.

But sometimes I'm so malas to follow all those episodes.

Now, Merlin is season 4 already. THANKYOUUUU TV3 for displaying Merlin every Sunday.

Although some times I hate you, tv3 for cutting some scenes :P

Obviously, Merlin is about the European history about Prince Arthur.

This show is changed a bit because Merlin is a slave of Prince Arthur.

But Merlin and Arthur's relationship is not only slave or masters but they're more than friends.

Although they're seemingly friends but Merlin is a magician.

The plot gets tricky because the kingdom that Arthur rules, Camelot, forbids magic.

During ancient time, magic was used to do evil things, like Dark Magic.

Merlin uses magic for good, though. He is destined to use his magic with Gaius to save Camelot.

He's a sort of 'friend' to Arthur but Arthur doesn't know that Merlin is a magician.

Everytime Merlin and Arthur talks together, I'll be laughing madly, seriously.

Sometimes, I dislike Arthur because he's so arrogant he thinks he's so powerful because he's a prince and I feel like punching his face.

I've no idea how Merlin endures Arhutr behaviour.

On the other hand, Merlin has a big duty for Camelot and he keeps helping Arthur secretly with magic. Merlin has a really kind heart. Every episode he'll be the stubborn one and always doesn't follow what Gaius, his so-called father and he always doesn't listen to Arthur although Arthur's his master.

I think it's quite tragic that Merlin and Arthur could be really good friends but they can't.

Just because Arthur really hates magic because magic has killed his mother.

Merlin is always together with Arthur but Merlin feels guilty too because he can't confess to Arthur.

Besides, Gaius is always saying:' MERLIN, YOU CAN'T BE FRIENDS WITH ARTHUR YOU GET ME?! '

I wonder how Arthur will feel when Merlin tells him the truth, someday. It's like being betrayed by the one you believed the most.

This Merthur relationship is just so tragic.

“I’m happy to be your servant. Until the day I die.” -said Merlin. to Arthur.

Okay, I'll be waiting for the next episode on Sunday. ARGHHHH COLIN MORGAN'S SO CUTE ;P Bradley James, too.

Merlin fan here, signing off.

Gah.

HAIIIIIII.

It's December. And I haven't been posting for so long.

That's because my holiday was boring. And It's quite a bad time to have holiday when your parents were having silence for 1 month.

Gahhh, I hate this kind of silence.

There are times when i hate my parents because when they fight they want me to side them.

And sometimes if i don't side them they start saying negative stuffs of the other party or maybe they won't even want to talk to me.

Give me a gun and shoot something.

Ok forget it forget it. Now, it's time to feel merry since it's christmas.

Every year during Christmas/Christmas' Eve I'll be staying up late watching Christmas movies with Mi.

These movies are really worth watching. I always like Christmas movies. It's like snowing outside but the movies make you feel so warm in the inside . ;)

LOL, in malaysia mana ada snowing xD

Anyway, thankyou tv3, ntv7 and 8tv for these 3 great movies :D

'We wish you a Merry Christmas and a happy new year'

That song tingles in my head. Every christmas when everybade's cheerful because of the season we have to part a year.

2011 is officially ending.

So ...yeah. Not very much to say but I'll guess I will miss 2011.

The biggest thing I will miss in 2011 is sitting in the cinema with my sister watching the last Harry Potter film.

This year have been watching a lot of movies >.< cost so much of money.

So... next year will be PMR year. Be very busy.

I won't keep wasting my time. Better study more, XJ.

But of course, I'll never lose sight of my interests.

I can't study 24 hours like duh, you want me to be Mad Hatter ah?

Oh well... ok. That's all, folks!

再见 Bye bye Selamat Tinggal さようなら revoir Lebewohl नमस्ते,

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太难了解这个世界，

密码天天在改变。

I'm not Hedwig. I don't fly. I don't transport messages. And, I don't hoot.

Dear Ba and Mi,

Just so you know, I'M NOT AN OWL.

Just hope both of you'd understand.

Sincerely,

Me.